Ayame_The_White_Wolf's Xanga

Friday, February 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 14:12:44 GMT

Go to my new web site= none of use this one again = My new user is= Ayame_Chan_Wolf
so go on the top press user and type that in there.
BYE BYEZ
~Ayame-Chan~

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 17:33:35 GMT

Om...helloz pplz.....om uh......just wondering around the foreast thats all......:|.om...

these are my episodes-

83. The Female Wolf-Demon Tribe and the Promise of the Moon Rainbow

84. The Super-Fast Marriage Deal

only two........ =*|

-_-' I have other tricks ya know -_-'

Bye Byez

~Ayame-Chan~

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 17:23:56 GMT

well..peoples...I don't have a valintine......oh well......Well anyways I was walking in the forest for a very long time............for 3 days.....

(p.s. I HATE IT WHEN THEY PUT OTHER PICS THEN THIS IF IT HAS NASTY PIC THEN ITS NOT MY FAULT I NEED TO CHANGE THEM...IF THERE NASTY(SOMETIMES THEY PUT NASTY PIC*DRIES*)

:|...yep.........oh and I still need help with my xanga site...need money....I'll put it on my life that I won't steal any I promise *does promise sign*....yep.... oh and I have my new e-mail its= ayame_chan_anime@yahoo.com

just e-mail me there and you know what to do...om....I really need to change my music........Its kinda a little scareing people.....blah blah......I donno know what else to do .........what sould I do...I'm all alone, I not that much near my pack anymore, because what happed to peoples in xanga(inuyasha stuff).........I haven't ate....I'm sooooooooooooo hungry...I'm getting a deer! :D

*hunts for deer*

YAY!

FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OM.........donno what else to do... :|

I'll just fix my site better then... :|

Bye and good luck to those couples out there!

-_-'' and not me....-_-+

~~~,~`@Sin-Ayame_The_White_Wolf~~~,~`@

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 00:48:12 GMT

Well...hey eveeryone......YOU ED STOP MAKING PEOPLE MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YOU MADE ME LOSE A FRIEND NOW!I AND I LOST HER BECAUSE OF A STUPID REASON!IT IS NONESENSE!
OK.back to me.............om...Thanx Ukyo your really nice........your the nicest person I had ever met...........*sad sigh*.............oh and Ukyo!GUESS WHAT?!!?!?
I'M NOT GOTH ANYMORE....IT BEAUSE MY BEST BUDDY(YOU) SAID NOT TO BE GOTH! ^__________________^

I just turned and walked away.......he said "WHAT ?!!?!DID I SAY SOMETHING WRONG?!!?!?"
hehe he is really funny...kinda like Ginta and Hakkaku together.....

o.0?sad pic...*nods*

Well..I was chaseing Ginta and Hakkaku just for fun....until they noticed that I was just kidding around.......lol!^________^

WERD!I DON'T HAVE A GREEN EYE AND A BLUE EYE!>:|
oh well...."RUNNING WITH THE WOLVES"

I found this this called "Inuyasha abusing children"Kids.... go away as possible as you can!!!!!
O.O* CALL THE POLICE INUYASHA IS ABUSING CHIDREN!

O.o?

~bye everyone~
p.s.If no one helps me in time....my new user will be Ayame_The_Wolf

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 23:38:27 GMT

Heres some pics I will never forget about*tear*
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This was when Kouga wanted to know what I was talking about

This was when I went out of the Mountain

Tis was when he turely wanted to know what happend between me and him

uh...I think this one too...

This one is when......om.....I don't wanna say it...-.-'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I will never foget those days~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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here are some werd pics=
This one here I took this quiz and it said I was her...

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This is the pic that I will always put when I write a new entry

~~~,~*Xsin-ayame-chan~~~,~*X

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 02:21:24 GMT

Well people I'm turning goth k?.............a white goth girl( goth, but wearing white all the time)........And to Kouga-Kun.................= I'm sorry but I was told by my wolfs not to talk to you anymore.....*sad sigh*...sorry......they got freaked out.........well this is good bye to you kouga, I will never see you again or talk to you again......*sad sigh*.......sorry...once more....................*tears swell up*....oh...*sob* sorry I'm hearing a japanese song that is sad...........well bye forever kouga.......YOu were a great one...................one of a kind....and now I must say bye to you............again....sorry kouga if you ever feel sad...........I'm sorry but I must not contact with you anymore (YOU DAMB WOLFS!*hits them with a big stick*)wolfs:*yelping*...sorry......about dat......hehe...well anyway this letter is for you kouga.......I hope you have your life with happyness.....and none sadness.....and no more loveing two people.........now I must leave to think on my own..............in the dark forest.......OH NO! NARAKUS HERE! OH GATTA GO LEAVE NOOOOO!*is about to be taken by naraku* I'LL COME BACK TO XAnga for sure*is taken away*..
~~~,~`@sin-ayame-chan~~~,~`@

~next day~
well hello people, as you can see my site has sadness into it!^-^.......and those poem on the top is what I made......yep...
Heres some poems me made=

You Told me You Loved Me,
I Thought It was True,
But Now I'm Sitting Here Crying,
All Because Of You

You Said I Was The Perfect Girl,
So I Gave You My Heart,
And All You Did To It,
Was Tear It Apart

Eight Months Of Nothing,
How Could This Be,
We Were Meant For Each Other,
But I Guess That You Could Not See
(I GOT OVER KOUGA OK!>:|, NOT LOVEING HIM ANYMORE!)NO MORE CRYING 4 ME!x-x~!
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This is something I leared

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...
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All Alone in my Bed

I admit I'm a shallow human-being
I only answered your call, to see how far it could go

every night I put on a smile, I changed inside
yet, you knew me through all the plastic

you knew I was afraid, of falling for you
you knew I put on this show, to hide from anything true

I pretend, and pretend I am someone else
through all the fake smiles, and friends that have come and gone

you stayed for awhile
but not for long

you showed me love, then you just left
I was a feather in the breeze, caught in a whirlwind

now I'm lost in my head
lost in my dreams

sitting in my room, writing my feelings
I can't explain them, they just come

I can't define in any world
what you have done

you look at me sometimes
we both know

the love we once shared
is too much to ignore

I have my friends, I have enough
but all I really need is your sweet love

I can't eat, I can only think

my chest is caving in.......
(NOT ANYMORE!)
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called (ANGELS ON THE INTERNET)

All the angels on the internet,
The toughest times you've seen me through,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.

The tears we've shared I will not regret,
My greatest sorrows you helped subdue,
All the angels on the internet.

You've stood by my side, I will not forget,
No other friends have been as true,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.

The healing's begun, but not done yet,
As through our pain, our hope we renew,
All the angels on the internet.

We've grown in strength, we'll not be upset,
Glorious new dreams we now pursue,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.

Your reward in heaven a coronet,
The glory of love is surely your due,
All the angels on the internet,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.
(to my internet friends)*tear*
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Believing a Lie

Sometimes I can’t even go to bed
Because when I close my eyes
All I can see is you in my head
I don’t think one day has gone by
That you haven’t crossed my mind
Every time I remember, I cry
How can you have meant so much to me
And I have meant nothing to you
I was so blind there was so much I didn’t see
It’s like I was lost
And didn’t know what to say
Whenever you held me close

I just wish I would never had come to realize
The whole time I thought u cared
I had been believing a lie
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*tear*Nope I'm not geting a mate..........never ever.........Who cares anyway?well here a poem I made from my heart...

Believing All You’ve Ever Said

Believing all you’ve ever said
Never thinking it was a lie
Sadly I was so misled
At night I always cry

Yearning for all our memories
To become my life today
For you I’ll always try to please
In my life I wish you’d stay

Are there any words for this?
For the love, the pain & tears
Is it you I’ll always miss
Will you bring back all my fears?

The fear of being alone again
Doesn’t feel right at all
No longer will I pretend
I will be willing to take the fall

I’ve proved it’s not a joke to me
My future with you in it, is real
Why is it I can’t make you see?
Or get a straight answer on how you truly feel

Why do I always think of you?
Night or day, you’re never off my mind
Do you feel the same way too?
Or is there nothing there for you to find

You have to stop coming and going
As often as you do
I can’t live life not knowing
If my dreams are misleading me too

So I hope you soon come to see
My heart will forever be aching
If you shrug and laugh at me
It’s my heart you will be breaking
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Depressed Again

It's been a bad day
I'm getting used to it now
another sad day
I'd cry but I dunno how

I'm drowning in thoughts
of how things used to be
my chest was shut tight
complete w/ purity

It's out in the open
should've kept to myself
I'll learn from mistakes
take my heart off the shelf

my soul has now fled
it's my body alone
and it's far too much hurt
for my heart to come home

I give it up now
there's no way to win
w/o you here
my world still spins

It's been a bad day
I'll try to let it not show
another sad day
and I'm just letting go....
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Don't Ask Me

Don't ask me to cross the ocean,
Or swim the deepest sea.
Don't ask me to reach for the highest star,
Or fly like a bird for thee.
Don't ask me to say what's inside my heart,
For I shall never see the lights of tomorrow.
Don't ask to give precious memories,
For my life shall be filled with sorrow.
Don't ask me to wish upon my star,
To carry our love for eternity.
Or ask me me to cry or plea,
Whenever you turn to leave me.
Don't ask me after a year of kisses and embrace,
To take my innocence.
Or ask for my heart and hand,
Knowing the world for us to possess.
Don't ever ask me to say, "I love you"
Because before I do,
You have to find the key to my heart.
And prove your love for me is true.
So don't ask me anything before you do.....
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Corrupted Love

A warm sensation fills my body
My heart races with every touch
The softness of your voice soothes
My soul
As I lay there hoping the moment
Will never end
Calling for you
Praying that you'll never let me go
The sensation so strong
I can no longer feel my body
Slowly I fade in and out of reality
In an instant the warm sensation
Fades away
My heart empty
My soul torn apart
Lying there; wondering where I went
Wrong
Calling out for you, only to find
there is no answer
My mind invaded with thoughts
So cruel and unrefined
The sensation of fear of what's to come
Slowly the reality over powering
The lust and fantasy
Leaving me empty
Confused on how to think or feel
The loneliness I feel
So wretched and compelled
Betrayal to myself
Revealing the terrors of my love
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I got over all this
I don't need this shit
I'm over not happy
But inside I'm glad
You said you loved me
But now you don't

Who cared anyway?
Why for the love we used to have
I don't need that anymore
Because inside I'm glad

I'm happy that I'm sad
I don't need anyone exept my family and friends
I don't need glee
I'm happy for you;

You found someone better as I do;

I don't need happyness to die
As might as well I cry
I don't fucking give a shit anymore
Because all you are to me is a small smore
Inside you are no more;
You are no more
As a small smore
My heart even aces more
I don't give a shit
Cause I'm all over this happyness
I'm goth and don't care
For the happyness I had
And now we that happyness dispared........
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Saturday, January 29, 2005

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 01:31:40 GMT

Well Thats it, I gave up...........no more worrys no more crying, no more sadness, hey I might find, this song really fits my life*closes eyes* yep it does.............*sigh*...well.....don't know what to do.....don't know what to say but about my part of life, I guess, kouga will never love love me................oh well.....I gave up on that, and life is getting hard I'm asking one of my wolfs to hook me up with someone*wink*...hehe!..Heres the lyric to my life
(Stray)

Stray! Stray!

In the cold breeze that I walk along
The memories of generations burn within me
Been forever since I cried the pain and sorrow
I live and die, proud of my people gaining

I'm here standing at the edge
Starin up at where the moon should be

Stray!
No regrets 'cause I got nothin to lose
Ever stray!
So I'm gonna live my life as I choose
Until I fall..

Stray! Stray!
Stray! Stray!

In the white freeze, I never spoke of tears
Or opened up to anyone including myself
I would like to find a way to open to you
Been awhile, don't know if I remember how to

I'm here waiting on the edge
Would I be alright showing myself to you?
It's always been so hard to do..

Stray!
No regrets 'cause I got nothin to lose
Ever stray!
So I'm gonna live my life as I choose
Until I fall...

Stray! Stray!
Stray! Stray!
Stray! Stray!

Is there a place left there for me
Somewhere that I belong
Or will I always live this way... ?
Always stray

No regrets 'cause I got nothin to lose
Ever stray!
So I'm gonna live my life as I choose
Cause all things fall

Stray! Stray!
Stray! Stray!
Stray! Stray!

Stray...
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Well life is changeing....everone no need to feel sorry for me......I've gained a werd life.......soon I'll will have a mate....O.O mabe by tommow!I HOPE! Mabe I'll talk to one of my wolfs arond here..... find a diffrent demon to mate with......hmmmmmm.....*thinking*...............well.........I'll keep on making sites till the end of my life ...mabe.......
@!!I'll put a notice up when I'm moveing sites!hehe..............this is my fave guy from South Park=
........Well I have to admit...Kouga and I don't belong to each other...............just.....friends!^-^..........well someone write in my chatbox?..........*rolls eyes*.........hehe........well gotta get my snack(deer).....................I'll be back on xanga....later!
p.s. People thanx for being there for me..and om my *ehem* xanga site...........
BYE BYE!

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 01:12:52 GMT

Well hey everyone...I feel werd today..............I donno why?I changed it to wolfs rain because of the white and well my user says white in it right?.....well sorry for those that I haven't back to its just I keep on getting logged of all the f*%@ing time!
Look at this pic I found of Naraku being nice!

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Well today I saw Inuyasha and his Bro..were fighting..............again

here are some pics me found=

HAHA!
Well bye everyone, and remember I'm always on xanga!well on someones site
......hehe
~~~,~`@Ayame-Chan~~~,~`@

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 21:16:15 GMT

LOOK AT HIM I CAN'T SAY IT, ITS A CHIBI EDWARD!AWWWWWWWWW LOOK AT HIM ITS SOOOOOOO CUTE hehe.............I don't know if you can have the pic but I made it!HAHA! I MAKE BETTER PICS OF EDWARD THEN YOU GUYS!HAHAHAHHAHAHHHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHA............I PUT IT ON ASK.COM JUST TYPE IN THE BOX EDWARD WALLPAPER AND THEN YOUR THERE....*SMILE* BYE 4 NOW!

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 18:30:36 GMT

AFter what happend, I feel like I need to kill my self this woman stuff(you men won't understand).........ANOTHER WOMAN HOOD OF BLEEDING.......O.o.....I can't belive I said that!
I WANT TO KILL MY SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*crying for years and years*.....................When this web site end I'm ending my life!I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!i bleed alot!
heres a poem me made:
I scream I cry I want to die
All this pain I hold inside
I can't resist it I can't enjoy it
I can't belive we don't have a joy with it
I feel the pain I dare not touch
I speak the word I dare not say
For one and a millon days
I want to live in another live
I want to be curest for a wolf for life!
So I won't feel all the pain I have write now
I need a better life then now!
I hate this life
How I hate it
I hate bleeding every day!
I'm tired of this fucking shit I want to end my day!
But I can't because people love me and enjoy it while I stay
But I fucking hate this stupid day because I bleed every single day!
Why god Why this why me and why with no riesist
I hate this life that I can't hold out with a simple kiss
People who care for me don't want me to die
I want to end it but how?
Do I cut my self?
Or tell someone to kill me?
Oh all this pain it burns me I want to die now!
But I will wait for kouga to tell him how.....
I will kill my self some of these days.......................